2/3 days left if you count the day of departure. I finished packing today and ended up with 19.4kgs, that’s 0.6kgs away from the weight limit *Happy dance*.

I’m saying goodbye to one part of my family today, saying goodbye to my boyfriend tomorrow morning, spending tomorrow with my daddy and spending Sunday with the other part of my family. Seems like my last days are going down exactly how it should. I am so excited to see what life is going to be like, to meet the people, to hear the language, to see the house, the area, the school, the city I have so much I want to see and experience I can’t wait to start.

Im scared of the moment I get on the plane and realize im alone. Iv never been without my family and I hate knowing my mom is not just a phone call away. On the other hand she is just a skype call away.

No more turning back now

The feeling of knowing that you are leaving for a whole year is very strange.
I started packing last night and realised that 20kg is NOTHING! I mean I only have basics in and it feels like my bag weighs a ton …now I know how my dad felt all these years when we would go away for the weekend and I would pack for a year. Now I’m leaving for a year and I only have space to pack for a week!
Being scared out of your mind while being so excited leads to tears while smiling. I sit here now searching for words to try and make people understand what this feels like , you feel like your smile is going to burst out of your ears because that’s how happy and lucky you are to be able to do this. On the other side you feel like your heart is breaking in two because you are leaving your friends, your family, your country , your language. And then you feel stupid for feeling like that because people would kill for the opportunity you now have.
I just know I am going to make the best of this opportunity no matter how hard it will be, I will push through because this is going to make me a better person with knowledge of the world.
I only have 6 days left in South Africa and I’m spending it with my family, my friends, in school and eating steak, pap and cheese.
Almost time to say goodbye and go out into this big world on my own for a year

So yesterday was exactly a month before I leave and that got me thinking abot how my life will change and how life will be its hitting me like a train that this is really happening and I am really going away for a whole year…

Whats going to happen with my friends?

Whats going to happen with my boyfriend??

Whats going to happen with my family???

Whats going to happen in South Africa while im not here ????

How will I change ?

How will my outlook on life change ?

What will I get to do ?

What will I experience ?

Who will I meet ?

How will school be ?

How will the people be ?

10 000 000 questions that nobody can answer for me , this I will need to figure out as time goes by.

I dont know wether I am happy sad excited or scared but with only 29 days left to go we will soon find out

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